Directions speak louder than words

Alice came to a fork in the road.
"Which road do I take?" she asked.
"Where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat.
"I don't know," Alice answered.
"Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter."

Multi-tasking?

So, here I am..
I'm currently multi-tasking. I'm writing an entry in my blog, doing a SWOT analysis on myself (for a class that I feel is completely pointless), thinking about my Senior Project... project and trying to figure why one side of keyboard is slightly raised in comparison to the other side. So far I've managed to write a completely useless paragraph in my blog, found out that I seem to have more weaknesses than strengths and confirmed the fact that I actually don't know how to multi-task very well. I've also come to the conclusion that I use one side of the keyboard much more than the other (I need to start typing with more words that contain the letters L, K, J, M, P and various other symbols).

But I digress...


My Senior project is a series of photographs that discuss the feeling of Depersonalization. I'm creating diptychs (within a frame) that show both the body (which appears to stripped of life) doing a normal daily tasks and the mind in the form of a transparent body (or bodies) that is interacting with it’s surroundings, trying to reconnect with or build it’s own reality. I've shot a couple of times and have found the "mind" seems to just be hanging around, doing mindless things (mind the pun, however good it may be). The figure that represents the mind, needs more direction.
I have to put myself in that position again. When my mind drifts off, where exactly is it going? What is it doing?
Besides that I've been thinking of location. Should I be sticking to indoor where I have more control of the environment, or should I be shooting on location? I was thinking of taking this to the park, or the beach where the figures may have more things to interact with. Although I like the whole clinical, clean feel I get with indoor controlled shoots, I don't want to limit myself to just that quite yet. I need to experiment.

I'm shooting tomorrow night, so wish me luck. I might be back on later on ranting about how much I hate UNV301.

Cheers! X

(dē-pûr'sə-nə-lĭ-zā'shən)

- An alteration in the perception or experience of the self so that the feelings of one's own reality is temporarily lost; a sense of unreality.

- Inability of a particular person to find his true identity.

I would sometimes find myself losing my train of thoughts. At one-moment things make sense; at the next I’ve entered a realm of total confusion. I no longer know where I am, who I’m with, and what I’m doing there. I can’t quite even remember who I am or if I really exist. My body and mind separate completely into two different entities that both don’t exist. It happens frequently and quickly. I live in a dream that mimics reality where thirty seconds lasts for hours, where you constantly have to remind yourself that you’re actually there, you are actually real, and where the last five months didn’t exist.

Entre

"I find myself regarding existence as though from beyond the tomb, from another world; all is strange to me; I am, as it were, outside my own body and individuality; I am depersonalized, detached, cut adrift. Is this madness?”
Henri Frédéric Amiel